Worries:

I am worried I will be alone forever, but even if I am, that is okay because I am still a great worthwile, important human being.
I am worried about moving to a new city all by myself.
I am worried about how life will be when school is no longer a part of it. Will I get terribly lazy? Will I find peace and contentment, in the working world? What will happen?
I am worried that I will always be ugly, no matter my size.
I am worried that I cannot do it....life that is. What if I screw it all up?
I am worried that I will never be the woman I want to be.

So I found this blog from November on my xanga today….I was reading and kinda smiled to myself because how much my attitudes have changed since then...I've been through a lot these past few months...a lot of things that have made me stronger, and I'm pretty happy about it.

I’m not worried about being alone forever…even if I don’t get married, I have great friends and I will make even more new friends when I move this year, so really I’ll never be totally alone, ya know?

I’m still slightly worried about moving across the state all by myself…but in the past few weeks this peace has just come over me, and I’m actually more excited about it than anything.

I’m not worried about being out of school…I’m going to have so much to do. I’m pretty sure I’m going to try to get a little part time job at night to help me out financially, so I’m going to be totally busy.

I’m not ugly. I’m beautiful. Right now. I don’t have to lose any weight to be beautiful. (although I still want to for other reasons. lol)

Seriously…It’s life...I’ve been living for twenty years…I can do it. Sure, I’ll make some mistakes along the way, but nothing that can’t be overcome.

In a lot of ways…I already am the woman I want to be. I’m not perfect, and I still have a long way to go but growing is a process and although I don’t ever want to stop growing and maturing, I choose to be content with who I am right at this very second.