Lord I believe, help my unbelief

It seems that one of the only consistent things about myself is that I have trouble believing. I moved home, then worried life was passing me by. I decided to go back to school, but worry maybe I should have pursued a job. I got a job, and I'm worrying that I settled and that I could be much better off if I hadn't.

And although my life is full of stories of God doing incredible things, and reminding me to trust Him over and over...this still seems to be one of my life's biggest struggles. I signed up to go to Argentina with my church this summer. I waited and waited to get going on my fundraising--lazy, I know... But then, I found out I had missed apayment deadline--I needed $600 in 2 days before I found out, and sadly I only had $145 raised. And not only that--a week later, another $500 was due. I FREAKED. But after I calmed down, I decided that I was going to trust God and get to work on raising funds and just see what happened.

A mere THREE weeks later, God had paid completely for my trip! Not only that, I was able to give money to other people on our team to help them in their fundraising as well.

You know...I think that I let my mind run away with me sometimes and it helps my heart forget the lessons it has learned.



I guess it's more of a process than I used to think. :)